Portfolio.com's Jeff Bercovici talks about the "existential dread" of writing about the media from the within the belly of the beast. Gelf Magazine presents Media Circus, a free, monthly speaking series covering the media industry from the inside out. Media Circus is held at Jan Larsen Art Studios in New York. April 5's installment also featured noted author and media writer Seth Mnookin; and Hamilton Nolan, Gawker's media critic. For interviews and more, visit www.gelfmagazine.com