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Dealing with emotionality from personal experience.

Motivation and source of happiness in the monkhood.

Contriving a plan to deal the the usual opposition of Chinese parents to monk ordination. A success story of winning the parents over.

Early career in counseling. Frustration with helplessness. The relationship to the idea of becoming a monk.

A great childhood with emotional problems and contact with Buddhism through Buddhist youth organizations.

Another experience of a recent, truly involved ghost story.

Knowing suffering as foundation for understanding the cause of suffering.

The advice of a psychic healer. The relationship between healing and right view.

After everybody disrobed, venerable Jutipanyo finds himself living alone in the forest, struggling to find direction for his monkhood.

Contact with Buddhism and the thread to commit suicide of the mother in case of her son ordaining.

How to tell whether a teacher is right for oneself.

How one can slip into building a monastery quite against one's plan & will.

Venerable's attitude to his role as an abbot.

The promise of Buddhism and the problems with the first teacher. Dealing with money.

Trying to find a good teacher until finally meeting Tan Ajahn Somchat.

What to do if there are kammic connection problems with spirits, whom one might have harmed in a previous life.

How hatred can grow over several lives. The danger of getting involved with other's feuds.

How to tell somebody is possessed, how to communicate with the spirit. Example of a nun who had a hostile spirit following her.

The suffering of venerable's difficult childhood and the resultant appreciation of the idea behind monkhood.

Teil 4: Peripherie der Realitaet

Teil 3: Peripherie der Realitaet

Teil 2: Vom Atheismus zum Buddhismus - Autobiographisches von Ashin Ottama

Teil 1: Geht es ohne Lehrer? Autobiographisches von Ashin Ottama

Biographical account of various experiences that indicated an inclination to interest in the Dhamma.

Changes of attitude towards the parents due to the interest in the teaching. Difficulties of the parents understanding the wish to ordain as a monk.

Initial contact with Buddhism. Inspiration through a disciple of Master Hua.

Realizing the spiritual vacuum through repeated dreaming of ghosts.

Studying various religions and then coming to Buddhism through the mysterious power of a resolution. "What Buddhists Believe" by Ven. Dhammananda as introduction.

Encountering five cases of death in a period of a few years.

The joy & truth in discovering the original teaching of the Buddha.

Why does Amitabha Buddha want to be bowed to for his help? Did the Buddha bow to bones or pigs?

Experiences with criticizing other traditions.

Various minor challenges of cave life.

A farmer's experiences with ghosts.

How to catch a tree spirit in a bottle.

Kicked out of a monastery over meditation style dispute. Value of loving kindness in behavior.

Staying in various caves in Malaysia.

Experiences with attempts to criticize the Mahayana tradition.

Reservations about the Mahayana tradition in theory and practice.

Several criticisms of Mahayana teachings.

Why does Amitabha Buddha demand that people pray to him? Could the Buddha have bowed to bones because they could have been his parents?

Criticism of the Vimalakirti Sutta which is belittling the wisdom of Ven. Sariputta.

Contact with Hinduism. Advantages of the clarity of the Buddhist Suttas. Several examples of the type of advice found in the Suttas. Nature of Satipatthana practice.

Sutta study as prerequisite for staying in seclusion. Advantages of staying in a cave.

Spending the vassa in Wat Pah Nana Chat, the international forest monastery of Ajahn Cha. Advantages and short-comings.

Experience of creating enemies within the Theravada through criticizing certain teachings.

Enlightenment and the asavas ('outflows').

The role of the jhanas in enlightenment. Attaining cessation of perception and feeling.

Lifestyle & survival in a cave in Malaysia.

Leaving Ajahn Yantra and staying in Wat Pah Nana Chat with Ajahn Passano. Discovering Theravada teachings and finding contradictions with and within the Mahayana tradition. First experiences with staying in a cave in Thailand and an auspicious dream with devas.