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I'm so sick of running From the truth Facing it's not Something I wanna do But sittin' here Thinkin' of what might be It never ends If only you could Stick your hand In my chest maybe Some of your insecurites Would be laid to rest Cause they have yet To create the words Of how I feel No matter where I go Or what I do it always Takes me back to you I pray every night that I won't love you anymore And wake up every mornin' Dissappointed So here goes nothing And everything at once You probably won't hear Me anyway calling for no Reason just to strike up A conversation just to Hear your voice No matter where I go Or what I do it always Takes me back to you I pray every night that I won't love you anymore And wake up every mornin' Dissappointed Just love me back Just love me back I'm tryin' so hard to forget You why can't I just hate You cause all that I'm Left with is your stupid Sweater that smells like Heaven if we're not meant For each other why are We still holding on with The tips of our fingers No matter where I go Or what I do it always Takes me back everything Reminds me of you I pray every night that I won't love you anymore Why can't I just hate you And wake up every mornin' Dissappointed © 2009 Chauncie Beaston

This house is so lonely With out you I can hear Every sigh and every Teardrop hit the floor Jim Beam holds my Hand says "Everything'll Be ok" I'll drink away a Gallon of your memories Tonight then I'll throw 'em Up in the morning Why'd you have to do this Made me fall into this puddle Of love splashed those Words around and hung me Out to dry How'd you Slip through my fingers Guess I was holding you Too tight wish I was holding You tonight wish I was Holding you tonight Another day is waking Up I hate my job and the Snooze buttons my best Friend when I don't wanna Go anywhere don't wanna See anyone all I can see Is your reflection in the toilet Bowl Why'd you have to do this Made me fall into this puddle Of love splashed those Words around and hung me Out to dry How'd you Slip through my fingers Guess I was holding you Too tight wish I was holding You tonight wish I was Holding you tonight I'd give anything to make This never happen but I'd give everything to hold You in my arms again I Know that I'm not perfect And I know that I will never Be I know I'll never be Complete because you Can't be whole when your Heart is missing Why'd you have to do this Made me fall into this puddle Of love splashed those Words around and hung me Out to dry How'd you Slip through my fingers Guess I was holding you Too tight wish I was holding You tonight wish I was Holding you tonight © 2005 Chauncie Beaston

She left you again Dropped you right onto My doorstep she must Have known this is where You would land and here I am to pick you up and Brush you off Just like I always do Every week or two When she is through With you but lately your Eyes have changed You don't look at me The same way you used to I'm so sorry that I made Things complicated But I was just havin fun And you didn't seem to Mind anways I know that I won't ever be her and I'm not tryin to but I won't run if you put your arms around me You've fallen again You tripped right over my Feet I said you would you Didn't listen to me and why Can't you see that this is How it's got to be you shouldn't Be here with me it's her you Need but while I watch you Breathe I'll slip into your dreams And to me it seems that they're Not what they used to be I'm so sorry that I made Things complicated But I was just havin fun And you didn't seem to Mind anways I know that I won't ever be her and I'm not tryin to but I won't run if you put your arms around me Now that its over can You honestly say there Was nothing between us 'Cause I know you love me I know you love me I know you love me She knows you love me So why don't you just tell her We coulda been somethin We coulda been nothing But atleast we tried We coulda been somethin We coulda been nothing But we'll never know now So I'll just sit here on my couch Listen to the radio just Stare out my window and Wait for you to pull up and When you come in you'll Run Straight to my shoulder Right where you have found A home so many times before I can't be the strong one For both of us again And I can't lift you up my Strength is weakening And you're not the only One who's heart is breaking In two Why'd you have to go And bring me down along With you © 2006 Chauncie Jo Beaston

So I'll wait for my Heart's confession To come clean, but I don't need you, so Why are you still Everywhere I wish your memory Would just pack up And leave 'cause I Can't seem to erase It myself Maybe that's why Lately I'm depending On everyone else Except for myself It's just so much easier When I'm lyin in Everyone else's bed, But my own, cause I Don't wanna sleep alone But all the while that I'm watching him sleep I am dreaming of you I am dreaming of you And though this night Will quickly fade I'll be dreaming of you I am dreaming of you My thoughts of you like Mirrors seem to crash to The floor as I reflect on These shattered dreams You're the piece that Seems to cut my hand And as I wash them Clean you still bleed through So much life's been wasted Staring at the hands of time Tracin' every single minute Of it back to you They say that time will ease The pain time's only drivin' Me insane daylight savings Another hour of this night That I can't take But all the while that I'm watching him sleep I am dreaming of you I am dreaming of you And though this night Will quickly fade I'll be dreaming of you I am dreaming of you So this is her she's a Beautiful girl, I guess This time you're really In love But does she honestly Think that you have Changed I know the truth Your duplicities remain So much pride's been taken Thinkin' of you and her my Heart racin' starin' at the Truth wishing I was blind They say that time will ease The pain time's only drivin' Me insane so tell me when Will I stop lookin back When the clock strike's me dead But all the while that I'm watching him sleep Are you thinking of me Are you screaming for me And though this night Will quickly fade I'll be dreaming of you I am dreaming of you © 2008 Chauncie Jo Beaston

Everything was perfect Oh how I love your beautiful Smile and I'm not sayin' you're Not worth it I'm just sayin' Maybe I'm not And I've got some places To go to I've got some Things to take care of And I've got some places To go to but I can't take you There no I can't take you There Why don't you just give up While you're still ahead I Don't want you falling into This mess that I live in I Wish you would float away Where she would never find You where she can't place A lock upon your chains Just float away I can't compare to the Last one no innocence Is not my claim and though My heart is in the right Place I'm not sure if my Head's in the same And I wanna love you So badly but this cross Isn't your's to bear and I've got some places to Go to but I can't take you There no I can't take you there Why don't you just give up While you're still ahead I Don't want you falling into This mess that I live in I Wish you would float away Where she would never find You where she can't place A lock upon your chains Just float away And I wanna love you so Badly but this cross isn't Yours to bear and I wanna Love you so badly but I'm Just tryin to save you from Me © 2009 Chauncie Beaston